Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in lulu_sweets17's LiveJournal:

Monday, August 29th, 2005
11:18 am	Days Leaving Days Leaving And so the bags are packed And we are all staring in awe... Going away and not expecting too much Not compared to what this summer saw... We grew up as children And emerged barely grown We spent a generation with each other Our friends setting the tone... Today we walk away, And believe... In the notion we are ready to run Our high school years started and ended & We can only think of the setting of the sun Many years and Many tears Many talks and Many walks later Our pasts falling in steps Hope that the future is even greater. Laughing and Dancing But maybe only on the outside Our summer came.. and our summer ended Days leaving... days leaving with the tide… So the leaves are turning now As does our head when we spot the car… As the car leaves weighed down by four years of memories And our friends watch us through the windshield from afar And this is the end of this chapter And so we begin another soon But we will all remember always The ending of our first in the sweet memory of June. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
11:35 pm	i got the wisdom teeth out last wed and have been in pain since...terrible pain... im leaving in 10 days... leaving this place, these friends, those memories, those tears, all of it... and i dont know how i feel about all that, i honestly dont know what to think.. its been such a hard and amazing year, its just all very confusing, and i feel like im sitting back watching somebody elses life... and its going by way too fast, i cant even say goodbye to a few of the people i would have liked to... and that hurts alot too. (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 11th, 2005
1:27 pm	one last time. grad poem... Congrats to Lenape's Class of 2005! one last time...we stand here in hopes of some kind of redemption for the scandalous behavior and the countless attempts at adulthood. we stand here merely as children who may have grown up just a little bit our caps snug on our heads and our gown nearly reaching the ground the one walk that defines your future that declares you a graduate the secret to the mystery of the next day... and we are about to make it we stand here wishing for one chance to say all the things we should have, the "i love you, I'll miss you" that will leave all of us in pretty tears. a final commencement of four years of pain, happiness, anger, delight... and above all, the end to the sweetest fears. we hoped, we lived, we cried, we waited we tried, we succeeded, we learned, we hated we struggled, we triumphed, we danced, we dated we laughed, we knew, we loved, we faded we wondered, and now today...we graduated. we talked, we spoke, we certainly were jaded... we were wrong, high school doesn't and certainly will not last forever most importantly though... we made it. we look wonderful tonight. and as we take this walk, diploma still in hand, we remember... congratulations class of 2005... (Comment on this)
1:25 pm	so few So Few...So very few. I spent a lot of time wondering Who would fix what we broke So very long ago… It seemed to be a different time then We were carefree And our smiles showed that. We were a breath of fresh air… And never let one single breath Go to any sort of waste… We were the children Who had no worries… We never stressed over time, Or lack of it. We knew there would be an end But also made a secret pact That we would keep fighting Until our very last seconds. We made good of our time And we loved every minute of it. Precious moments Were never let wasted… Because there were so few… So few. Few too many, And few too less Neither of us could decide which We were closer Than most people think possible… And we used our hearts To make the most of our decisions. We followed in the direction Our toes were pointing And sunk them in sand Whenever we saw it possible. Funny how opportunities pass us by And funny how they run out After a while… I never thought we would leave here. Childhood seemed forever. And adulthood seemed A bizarre and odd aspect of the future… But sooner rather than later… We entered that point of no return… And we never even saw it coming… (Comment on this)
Monday, June 6th, 2005
12:13 am	summerrrr... summer is 9 days away... and i totally love that. summer=fun times+amazing memories+best friends... now its going to be hard to top last summer... summer 04 wont ever be forgotten... it would be impossible, and the memories we all made... are gona be there forever, but i say, it proposes a challenge to us...we gotta make it even better. my perks are gona be in my heart forever... you guys all know that, evry single one of you... (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
9:46 pm	Eighteen. One day makes a lifetime Years passed slowly and struggles passed even slower. There were mountains to climb... Puddles to run through... Rain to dance and kiss in. Stars to kiss at night. Sand to wiggle toes in. Those years start to pass A little faster now... I'm holding onto memories now. Testing the ropes... (Comment on this)
9:46 pm	Wild. I recall sometimes of the smile The one that drew me in... Drove me wild with passion I picture those eyes sometimes... They were the ones that seduced me in my dreams... Those lips caressed my own And whispered secrets to my heart Softly grasped my lips in love... I am remembering those arms... The strength and power in them The protective nature of their movement. Those hands that captured my dreams Gave the hope back to my heart And then managed to take it away again. (Comment on this)
9:46 pm	Hard Pressed. I was hard pressed to find someone else That knew me like you do... I remember wishing It hadnt't always been about you... Sometimes I find myself falling And tripping over the memories and the pain, How we used to talk all the time And drive each other insane... I walked away from his car tonight Knowing this was the last of it The last of the pain, and tears, and sadness I watched the way our intertwining fingers fit. Your fragrance still lingers on my skin And bathes me in the passionate memories of tonight Amazing could be the only word to describe Our firey kisses under the glaring streetlight. Your grip continues to hold me And it releases me all the same... Somewhere I realized... This wasn't some childish game. Your touch sets my skin on fire A feeling I've never felt before I can't stop thinking of what we almost lost. Before you came and opened the door. So now I will ask you just one more time... And I swear I will not beg for more... Love me like you promised? Please? And show me what all this suffering has been for. (Comment on this)
9:46 pm	Gone. Gone. Gone Where? GOne Why? Gone What for? Gone When? Back. Back Where? Back Why? Back What for? Back When? Never. Never Again? Never Why? Never Where? Never When? Always. Always Where? "In My Heart." You Said. Always Why? "I Love You." You Said. Tears. Tears Again? Tears Always. Tears Stop? Stop Never. Tears Why? "Gone." I answer vaguely. (Comment on this)
9:46 pm	Ever So Fading Smile. I'm standing here in the shadow of your ever so fading smile And sometimes the memories graciously dissapear but only for a little while. I am haunted by the tears that left passionate lines streaming down your cheek. Sometimes but not often, I think of my own pain and fight an inner struggle, trying not to turn weak. The days drag on & tears fall as does darkness The stars come out shining, my dreams only lying. Sunshine harbors despair, as one day becomes more difficult Forgetting isn't easy, even possible, but here I am trying. Moving on seems redundant, loving you never-ending The end of us, tale of true love, will never leave forever. Can we turn this sought after disaster into triumph? I will be captivated, forgotten at the close of never. My stolen heart's shards of a near so broken dream Lift you up, sear your smile, into my best kept secrets. My tired eyes strain to reach your mind Flowers, maybe chocolate, and the mood each always sets. Try to imagaine a world devoid of dream-like love... Take yourself away from me, get a little taste of it. (Comment on this)
9:46 pm	Baby Blue. Your misguided roses tempt me Images of those mysterious eyes continue to captivate me. So now that the petals have wilted and your loving stare... has all but turned into a haunting glare. Just a picture & a handful of memories is all we seem to have left. Keepsakes burn at hand, tears in their own struggle. Your echoing departure rings in my ears. I tug on the earrings the ones you said were your favorite. I look down at my baby blue shirt... Your baby.. your blue... your girl... I am well aware of your absence, thank you. How could I possibly attempt to forget? Your every emotion lines my shelves. If i strain my eyes with unbridled passion I can sometimes will away those, oh, so evident tears. I adore your memories these days.. Every once in a while, A few slip through the spaces between my fingers... the spaces you used to fill. Don't be dismayed by your lonliness It will be eternities before you lose all of me... I promise. I promise. When that sure moment blows in... the wind-altering, shadow changing moment Embellish it to true greatness... I knew that our intentions were right But the dark, star encrusted sky closed over. And the stars blew themselves out faster than either of us could hope to breathe. Its cruel repertoire of actions have brought us up until this moment today. We have been... traumatized, tortured, they've tried to tear us apart. Let us turn our focus All memories, minutes... All months, moments... to the end of our last hours... To each other... To each other... Each other's first... We will be each other's last... We already are each other's everything. (Comment on this)
9:46 pm	Trembling Brilliance... There I was… Standing there. Under the same stars we layed under.. Under the same stars that shined upon us that night. The stars that burn those sparkles into those eyes. Eyes that I had made love to in my dreams… I heard the words leaving my head… But I wish, as soon as they left my mouth: That I had never said them at all. So I try to take them back, all the stupidity. But I see they have already sunken in and taken effect. Can I erase the pain from your eyes? Take it back in any way? Say something, please. Say anything… I beg. I beg for those sweet whispers, and again… I remember. Nights spent just driving to an unseen destination. Kissing under streetlights… With the radio playing Loving, real love. Undescribable, Incredible…Love. Talking about nothing, and most of the time everything. You took all of my heart…and I really never got it back. So now we stand in awkward silence… This isn’t us. We don’t argue or get mad or feel tension. So we stop. And again your arms are around me… You know how to make a girl feel alive. And when I lift my head towards you…Your lips are still there. Those oh so familiar lips, tender and caressing. They pull you back in, no matter how hard you resist. Those lips, and those eyes, create an undeniable pair. Tell me you love me, and make it all right again. But this time when you say it…could you just not cry? Because those tears haunt me. They hurt me. They follow me… I was the source of those tears. So I match them with my own, As we stand there in trembling brilliance. Maybe you were always supposed to be my forever. (2 Comments |Comment on this)